Research & Work Based Practice - Updated Ideas

I have reviewed and decided that I need to update my Learner Agreement. I have made another one with the updates on it and I have changed the storyline, location, mode to shoot to solely black and white, high contrast.

Here is the updated copy...

I have decided to make a video to show feeling alone and lost. Lost in life and in your head. This piece will have a lot of meaning to me, my life so far and as it continues. I have decided I need to do this as it might help to express how I feel I have felt over the years but never been able to make other see or understand it. I have decided use my daughter as the model again as she will represent me as a child. Photographers use their skills and photographs to represent themselves as well as their feelings. It is seen as art and can help people to have a view of their world and their thoughts. The lonely place that I went to as a child is one which is truly misunderstood and can be looked over very easily. I think me doing this could help those who have had a 'great' upbringing (if there is such a thing) to look at things through my eyes and see that even children can go to the lonely places at times in their lives. 

There is only really on downside and that has proved once already to be an issue. My model is my 5 year old daughter and if she decides she isn't going to do something, she won't do it. 

If the first shoot works I will look at moving straight onto the final piece, if not I will plan a second test shoot. Once I am happy it will work I will shoot the final. Then it will be all about the editing and processing in Premiere. This program is complex compared with photoshop to me as I do not know it very well however I will be able to look at online tutorials to help me along and I can ask tutors for help if I get really stuck. The video will be shown either on a tv or via projector. This piece will have music to go with it or at least sounds. I would love to be able to pair a piece of piano music to what I will create as it is another passion of mine which if people know me they will already know that. 

I want to make sure I have plenty of time for post production work. It is crucial I get it right and have plenty of time for errors or retakes of certain parts if it doesn't look right for whatever reason. 

I have decided to move this video to my home, I have much more control with just about everything here. It will also help my daughter to calm down and help me. I have also decided rather than using the steady cam to just use my tripod as I can hold it steadier with that then the gadget. 

Story line : 

A little girl walks up one morning with a feeling of being alone so sets out to find her parents. She looks out on to the back garden to see there is no one there and it looks cold and miserable outside. She goes onto the landing to find her favourite rabbit teddy sat there on its own so picks it up and carries on looking. First the bathroom, then her parents room and with no luck there she heads down stairs. The family dog is no where to be found and neither are her parents. She find the family portrait and sits thinking, then it hits her and she starts to panic. She runs back up the stairs, looks at herself in the mirror thinking who are you and why have they left you. Is it something you have done wrong, don't they love you anymore? She takes out her newly found emotions by pulling a mattress across the landing. Next she crawls through the tunnel to go back to her bedroom, the only place she felt safe and warm. She slipped into a lonely place sat there. Years pass, she grows, but her room stays the same. She is still in that same place years later and still feels alone. A little hand reaches out to her and comforts her as an adult. She starts to overcome the feeling and gradually feels the warmth in her heart again. The hand was that of her own child...



I think this story line is closer to me and relates to me and my past more. I spend no end of hours a day in my bedroom listening to music as thats where I felt safe and comfortable in my own bubble. The tunnel in that represents the change and the feelings that come from nowhere.

With these changes as already stated about I will be changing the video to black and white to give it more of an effect of being a lot of years ago. I think it will follow on more now as well from my stop motion which I made earlier in the year. That was based around bad dreams and thoughts I used to have. This video is looking more at personality and mind set rather than the subconscious.